November 2011
Quite often I let my dreams control my behavior and actions.
A few months ago I had a dream that Joel and I were making out in the music section at work. It was awkward but then somehow I started developing feelings for him.
And then I asked him out, he turned me down, he asked if I wanted to be his casual fuck buddy and I turned him down and then eventually he clicked and asked me out. I said...
I’m never dating again. All this crying and worrying has me exhausted.
Today I found out he wanted to break up with me on Friday but waited till Sunday and that there is no other female.
So basically I can’t hate on him for that since there isnt someone else.
I told Geoff that I was done with this crying bullshit. I did the Adele thing yesterday. I’m over it.
It’s time...
Calum came over after I texted him that I was a hot mess. He spent most of the day with me. I had a wee cry and he gave me hugs, we got food and he let me talk his ear off about everything. We went to the park and he showed me his graffiti and then we came back to my place and he showed me youtube videos.
in particular this one called love is evol. and its cheering me up so far. Obviously its...
deckardcain replied to your post: here is post break up post #1 of what I hope is one
:( im sorry gf. break ups really suck. just know that there’s always some one else out there. he seems like a nut tub anyway. your sweet prince will come
thanks!
idk some how I managed to find some great friends and they’ve been checking in on me and hanging with me all day. It’s nice to know you...
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bestofthenet:
Adele - Someone Like You
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here is post break up post #1 of what I hope is...
I dont understand. Last week we were happy, we were talking and laughing and doing dirty things in parks at night.
This week he was distant, ignoring me and he tells me he has been thinking about our future and how he thinks we wont work out in the long term because we have nothing in common, that we’re incompatible.
I dont drink. I dont smoke. I dont go clubbing.
Things I made obvious,...
welp guess i wasted my money buying him a...
he just broke up with me
a small rant about work
So I work in retail.
It’s already not fun, we get dumb customers like mister “I dropped my ipod in water and I know its not covered by my warranty but I want you to fix it” and miss “My xbox game is scratched and you didnt show me the disk so this is your fault its not at all my fault because my xbox moved”
I can get past the customers, mostly because if they could...
when I get married…I’m gonna go missing at during the reception, as will my bridesmaids and we’ll be up in some hotel room getting drunk and watching funny movies.
sorry future prince.
Weddings are incredibly horrible for me. I am happy if I can get champagne in me.
I was gonna grow my nails out but then I realized I don’t think people would appreciate me slicing through their skin
They were at that point where if I made a fist…I cut myself.
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so I know there is nothing wrong with us, he’s just been busy and I’m doing me I’m doing me I’m living my life lazily but my head is still telling me something is wrong.
and I cant help but think that I made something wrong when I asked him if something was wrong.
THIS IS WHY I SHOULD HAVE REMAINED SINGLE.
THE COMBINATION OF CRAZY ASIAN AND CRAZY FEMALE IS NOT A GOOD...
lillyluna replied to your photo: NIGHTMARES
WHY IVY WHY.
THINGS THAT ARE WRONG WITH SOCIETY….AMIRITE?
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and like always everything was just in my head
ALSO CAN ALL MY FRIENDS JUST LET ME GET MY WAY.
I WANT YOU ALL TO BE HAPPY AND HAVE NO ONE HURT.
THE MESSAGES IN MY PHONE ARE TELLING ME THIS WILL NEVER HAPPEN
FOR ONCE FRAANDS, LET ME HAVE MY WAY. PLEASE.
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A manager at work, who I’ve known since I was 16 told Joel that he should never upset me or make me mad at him…
I don’t know how to respond to that.
On one hand, it’s sweet that she cares
On the other, we aren’t that close…once she left the company we worked for we never spoke and we only started speaking when I started my current job.
For the record...
Reblog if you have nice tits.
My F21 order is 97 dollars. I have no money.
I guess I will be living off grilled cheese sandwiches for a while. Maybe ramen. Possibly fried eggs and sriracha sandwiches.
None of these sound bad at all.
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I’m starting to get annoyed. We never hang out anymore and when we do it’s usually so we can have sex and he will legit either drop me off or go home afterwards. There’s no hanging out after the sex.
I want to get to know him but he’s always about sticking his dick in me.
I got a text today saying how he just wants to have sex with me. Like what the fuck? I dont want to...
Sometimes I wonder how it’s possible for me to have friends irl.
like I am super antisocial
“Ivy come out with us!”
“…maybs”
and then I find a way to not go.
Like I don’t text my friends either because I hate texting and no one calls each other in this country. Joel and I text more than we talk to each other. I have him as my best mate and I never...
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I just took that stupid pregnancy test and hooray I am not pregnant.
If you have already bought gifts from my registry please return them or you know what? Feel free to send them to me still.
My address is
Little Ivy P. Grassy Knoll #4 Middle Earth. 0006.
Cheers guys
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so my mother has terrible friends. I’m not kidding. Her friends are ridiculous.
I’ll give you a quick back story.
My family is the first generation in New Zealand. Before I was born my parents snuck on a ship to go to Singapore from Vietnam and then from Singapore they boarded a rickety boat to get to New Zealand. When they arrived here they found jobs and have been working ever...
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Wait…how did he update his fb about seeing twilight when he was with me then and he has a brick for a phone?
Strange. I don’t want to get up for work.
Work sucks. Well the customers suck. The coworkers don’t.
Lies.
They do.
Well one of them does.
“But when a saga popular with pre-adolescent girls peaks romantically on a night...”
– NPR’s Linda Holmes reviews Twilight Breaking Dawn, Pt. 1 (via diandrabird)
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My favorite part about last night wasn’t when we had sex in the park again but rather when we were sitting in the car talking about how I would break up with him for making me go see Twilight.
“who do you think you are Joel? You’re not Edward Cullen! You aren’t some sparkly vampire. You aren’t some gay sparkly vampire. I am not team Edward. How dare you do this to...
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that annoyance you feel when you snag your...
I just got sucked into the world of Saturday cooking shows and never checked my phone. As a result I just bombarded Joel’s phone with a million texts in response to the ones he sent me.
In my defense…he knows very well that I was watching crappy cooking shows so…this was expected.
Also Forever 21…I am mad at you.
